Its not fair
Why do I have to get so attached?

I'm looking through the yearbook, and I started making my "about to cry" face...like a forced frown it kinda hurts my muscles when I saw his face. And then, I was like dammit the year is almost over and I got him a card [or two, im not sure if i'll give both to him], and i didnt know where they were.

But I found them, and I read the first one and I started bawling.

Why?
I hate having to think...this person who has shaped my life forever, I'll never see again in my life.

I hate this. I've got to stop getting so attached, and crying like this. I guess it's better here than at school. But I'm pretty sure if/when I give it to him...I'll cry.